The Jester...

The Jester
i put on my red nose
the white powder
my funny hat
baggy pants
rainbowed clothes
i jump and prance
i fall and dance
i shriek and mock
break the balloons
tease the elephant
i hear the laughter
children scream and clap
the papers fall
the curtains are down
silence follows
another day
another job done
can no one see
the smile is painted on....

Why did you lie?

Why did you lie?
There is this silence between us now
and it screams and tears me apart
Why did you lie?
Why did you lie so many times?
I cannot take it any more
Memories reel together
words empty words oh so hollow
standing in front of the mirror
my fingertips touch the others
reality merges into illusion
and i see your face
pain dissolves into tears
every smile every line is now a lie
slash on my wrist
a stake through my heart
sitting in a corner
feeling so naked so alone
with only a question
why did you lie?
why did you make me believe?

Tears running inside me

"Tears running inside me"

Lowered my gaze
removed the armour
bared my soul
only to feel your barbed wire
sharp so sharp your words
Like a million shards inside me
tears running inside me
who is that mocking me?
my reflections jeering at me
voices in my head laughing crying
somebody stop it
its a never ending fight
going down down down
i left my chute
and took the leap
only to fall
my hand reaches out
but only air is there
and then i see the emptiness in your eyes
your each word tears at my soul
soul is shot but the armour is back
and i smile with tears running inside me..